I had the most wonderful boyfriend in the world, who I worked very hard at getting. We met back in the ninth grade and played cat and mouse for a period of time before finally getting together in the 12th grade and we have been together ever since. He is charming, romantic, tough, thoughtful, and increadibly sexy. We have plans to get married and have children in the next 4 years! Then something happend that made me step back and take a look at what lay behind the mask of beauty. Last night ...

I have been working as a nanny for about 4 1/2 months and I really enjoy it, but sometimes I wonder if I am being pushed around and even taken advantage of. For example, my bosses hired a cleaning crew to come over and clean up the house every other Thursday. No big deal, right? So then they ask me if I wanted the cleaning crew to clean my room ( I am a live in Nanny) and I said that I would rather them not. Naturally they were surprised and asked me why, at which point I explain to them th...

Being a nanny has its ups and its downs, under the Good things I have the unreplacable satisfaction that I am changing someone's life for good and hopefully for the better, there is never a dull moment when taking care of three boys, and I am almighty as far as they are concerned. but with every pro comes a con and that is what I am going to write about today. From a birds eye veiw, I am a mom. I carry around a diaper bag stuffed ful of every item imaginable, I smell like babies, I have low p...

Being a nanny has its ups and its downs, under the Good things I have the unreplacable satisfaction that I am changing someone's life for good and hopefully for the better, there is never a dull moment when taking care of three boys, and I am almighty as far as they are concerned. but with every pro comes a con and that is what I am going to write about today. From a birds eye veiw, I am a mom. I carry around a diaper bag stuffed ful of every item imaginable, I smell like babies, I have low p...

I am really excited about the baseball season. I cant wait to see a game played by the NATS! WUH-HOOOOO!!! YEAH NATS ROCK!

So yesterday I wrote about my so called friend Kelli, in "Catholic Dunce". Now I have new information which not only shocked me but hurt my feelings. Not only did Kelli get drunk the night before last and make a fool of herself she had sex with another random guy. Thats right folks... another one. She has not been as "holy" as she would have everyone believe and what makes things worse is.. I found out through a friend of mine whom she confided in. Kelli specifically asked her not to say anyt...

I have a really good friend named Kelli, and every time we hang out it seems like she is a different person. You see Kelli has a problem she likes to change herself to be like the current guy she is with. I am not saying there is anything wrong with adjusting your lifestyle a little so that you have a common place to chill... or something, But changing your beliefs, your way of dress, and most of all your religion is silly. I mean why would the guy want to be with you if you're exactly like h...

I know nobody likes to talk about being in debt...I mean lets face it debt stikes even the most frugal. It gives the feeling of dishonor and maybe even shame to most of us. Since I have left my mother's home I have been blind to the bills piling up around me.. every time I answer the phone I screen my calls.. and everytime I check my mail... I sigh in dispear. I decided that I dont want to live like this anymoe... I dont want to lie to my parents and boyfriend and I dont want to keep spendin...

This morning I woke up at 7:19 am to the always irritating sound of the alarm clock. My boyfriend had instructed me to wake him up in the morning because he was getting into a nasty habbit of being late for work. Aside from the irritation I felt.. I had a deeper feeling in my chest this morning, one that I am tired of feeling, I felt like there was nothing to live for. IMAGINE! Jst imagine waking up with this terrible notion that you have nothing to live for today, or tomorrow... or the ne...

When I was around 3 years old, my Mother noticed something very extraordinary about me. When she would put me in the tub, I would sing while I played, of coarse there is nothing extraordinary about that, but the amazing thing to her was that I was able to memorize songs perfectly, hitting every note like a homerun. Though my Mother wasnt the postergirl for having braggable children.. I remember vaugly her telling her friends how lovely my voice was... and then they would all demand to hear it...

I once heard a very true statement that helps me make sense out of things that dont seem right. It was, " The sweet isnt as sweet without the sour" I think that statement can be applied in almost any terrible situation, from the far extreams of death... to something as simple as dissapointment. For instance: If a new mother was to lose the father of her baby... she would appreciate her life and even more so... her baby's life. For a few years now I have been attempting in vain to g...